Frustration

I'm on the verge of pulling my hair out. I realize that this has been an incredibly long journey and we're almost to the end and God has perfect timing, etc. but we're SO CLOSE to finally having Olivia home that the waiting has gotten much much harder. Our agency told us last week that our dossier would be hand delivered to the government agency that does adoptions in Hanoi on Monday morning which was Sunday afternoon our time. They said we should expect a log in date (LID) either this week or next. I've been BEYOND excited about this, because it's the last thing we'll wait for before we get our travel approval (TA.) I've been patiently (well - maybe not so patiently) waiting for our LID for several weeks now. Knowing that our dossier was being delivered Monday was VERY exciting!

I still haven't heard about our LID, but I wasn't getting too terribly worried yet. That was until I logged onto the Dillon forum tonight. Three other families received an email Tuesday night with LID's of August 29th. We didn't receive an email. Did someone just hit me with a bat? Gosh - it sure feels like it. Oh my gosh. I just want to scream!!!!! I want our LID. Not just sort of, not just kinda - but I want it desperately. I can't put into words what the waiting is getting to be like. For most of the families going through Dillon they've received TA about 8 weeks after they received their LID. That's why it's so important. Our LID will put everything in motion for us to be able to go to Vietnam. I actually take back what I said before. I don't want it desperately - I NEED it. If anyone out there has spare time on their hands, please pray pray pray for us to get our LID and TA and most importantly our DAUGHTER!!!!!

Perhaps I've vented enough for tonight. I'll try to share some happiness! Yes there is some! I've started decorating Olivia room at long last! Her bed is made and adorable. She has a lovely new rug to spend afternoons on having tea parties with her dolls. I bought material today to make her curtains. There are lots of darling pillows and a cute white book shelf with flowers on it. A wicker chair I painted white that will have a lovely pillow on it matching the curtains after I make all of it in the next day or two, but MOST IMPORTANTLY!!!! her chandelier!!! I decided many months ago that a princess like Olivia deserved a crystal chandelier in her room. Everyone thinks I'm nutty of course, but once you see it, you'll change your minds! It's gorgeous! I scoured the internet and looked on Ebay for weeks before I finally came across an amazing deal. If you know me at all, you know that I don't buy anything if it's not a great deal! I finally came across one that was perfect except for one small detail. It had gold detail. Yuck and poo. I bid on it anyway because it was an amazing deal and I got it. I paid $50 for a Swarvoski chandelier. Perhaps this doesn't mean much to most of you, but I assure you it's a fantastic deal! It's been sitting in our bedroom for 4 or 5 months, but I got it out yesterday, took it apart and painted all of the non-crystal parts white. We put it back together and Mike put it up in her room this evening. It's absolutely positively GORGEOUS!!! I'm so thrilled with it. It's perfect. Once her room is all done, I'll post some pictures. Mike assures me that she'll hate all of this fancy stuff and want her room done in camouflage, but I'm betting she'll be happy to have a fancy room and save the camo to wear hunting. She can always hang her first buck in her room to hold her purses!